I just suddenly had this thought will bathing. Isn't it scary to realise that, the person you think you know so well isn't what you think he is? I think I am someone who doesn't hide my character, neither do I hide the real me. I'm someone who can be seen through easily. I don't see the need to pretend to be someone I am not. I am basically, egoistic, selfish, controlling, demanding & the worst nightmare if I was born a guy.
& It isn't everyday that you find friends who are straight forward with you as well. Friends who bother to pick out your wrongs & more importantly, spend time telling you your mistakes. I am someone who cannot cannot cannot take criticisms. I don't like people picking at my bad points (who doesn't?). I think I am the best (runs in the family), and I don't like to be the loser (runs in the family too).
But because, I am not a teenage girl anymore & I cannot flare up as and when I like it, I have to learn to accept what people tell me & try to change. I am infact greatful to have friends who are willing to pick my bad points out & tell me straight in the face. I wish I had that courage, and I wish I cared enough for people to give this kind of criticisms. Constructive ones at least.Tell me how many people will bother spending that time when they can complete a dinner peacefully?
It is scary to know that you cannot decipher the person whom you think you know so well now, how difficult would it be to pick out those who are gonna do you harm in the working society (for me at least, still enjoying the shelter of school)?
I think in someways, there are the pros & cons about being so open with your character. Maybe sometimes, keeping some things away from people might be good. But then again, isn't it tough and tiring to pretend?
I am rambling on & on. Conclusion & main point is, to have friends isn't difficult, to have honest friends and people who really do care for you is the real challenge.
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I am greatful to have a wonderful boyfriend who has been giving in to every whim of mine, every nonsensical, demanding and totally ridiculous request of mine, trying to give me the best even though you don't have to. I really appreciate it :)
Everyone needs a wake up call now and then, I just got mine. Thanks counsellors. haha!
XOXO
